WONDERING

I never believed a man could
Think of me romantically--
I was just one of the gang,
Everyone's buddy.

Since I can remember, my
Father said I was stupid, fat,
Boring and plain--and no man
Would ever love a girl like that.

He was my father--how could
He be wrong?  I watched
Friends fall in love and get
Married--Dad's words I never forgot.

There was a man that might
Have cared about me that way--
But since I couldn't believe it, he
Married someone else, still is to this day.

Sometimes I wonder if my
Father hadn't said those things--
My life would be different,
And I wouldn't be left wondering.